Lessons Learned

I was not exactly having the time of my life this past week due to the amount of stress that finals has put on me. I have been too caught up with school to reflect on what I had experienced this school year. Two semesters felt like two years. I had obstacles thrown at me from every direction. Some I dodged, some I tackled. I would like to think that due to what I have been through, I was forced to mature faster than I was meant to during my first year in college.

I had my fair share of anxiety attacks, breakdowns, and revaluations. I had troubles looking for someone or something to remind me what I needed to do and how I should be doing it. I lost myself for a bit and it took a while for me to get to where I am now. I may have fallen back in school but I managed to snap out of it and get work done.

I took a loss but I still tried my best on my final exams. It lead to other obstacles such as having my financial rewards taken away, however, I am currently handling the situation. This was eye-opening. As part of the process of getting back on my feet with my academics, I had spent more time on learning how to better my time management and financing. This should help me for the upcoming term. I plan on becoming a better scholar and continue to pick myself up no matter what the obstacle is.

Trial and Error

I believe my first semester in college was a time to test my limits to prepare myself for the next four years. I did not realize this until now. I tested many different limits last term; from how much work load I can handle, how many anxiety attacks I can handle from my boyfriend and family, how many parties I can attend before I let it get in the way of my school work, how much popcorn I can eat before I start throwing it up, and how low my GPA can get before I decide to wake up.

I never believed in “learning from mistakes” because what if you were destined to keep failing? I’m not saying I was but it’s starting to seem like I am, at least that is how my mom makes me feel. I found out a few things about myself last term that I didn’t already know. I didn’t know how much pressure my family can put on me and drive me crazy. I didn’t know that I could ever do this bad in school. I also didn’t know that I can snap out of my bad behavior and get on track with my school work.

I spent most of my high school career to match up with my smart friends when it came to grades. I was the dumb one in my circle of friends but I manage to pair up with them and graduate high school as an honor student. I’d like to think that I barely made it for “senioritis” caught on to me during my last year. I had a pretty effective work ethic that got me through the “easiest part of my life”. I just wish I brought those work ethics with me and used it during my first year in college.

Here I am, under academic probation because my GPA was not satisfactory. I am now suffering the consequences such as not being able to get into my major next semester. However, I am not letting this affect me more than it should. It should not make me feel like anything but motivated. Film is what I’ve always wanted my career to be and it’s going to happen no matter how much the struggle will be. I have already been doing so much better in all my current classes, work-wise and attendance-wise. I’d like to prove everyone who had no faith in me. After all, success is the best revenge.

No Way?

I have always imagined college the way movies portray them to be with the fraternities and “nerds” and different groups of people very distinguished from one another. What surprised me the most is how well people get along and how fast and easy it is to create a very strong bond with each other. I found myself belonging to many different groups of friends in high school and I always feared that it will not be the same way in college. I proved myself wrong. Two months into my freshman year in college and I had already managed to make myself comfortable with different groups. I guess nothing has changed with the way I present myself to strangers.
However, I have realized that I am turning into someone I never thought I would turn into after I graduate. This change surprises me more than anything else. A lot has changed about me. Firstly, I never saw myself being as involved as I was in high school. I had planned to be involved in school but I knew it was going to be harder to make an impact now that I am in a much bigger campus with ten times more of the student population that I was accustomed to. I am currently an intern for University of Hawai’i Productions (UHP). It has been a dream of mine to become a part of this crew since my junior year in high school. Seeing members of UHP roaming around campus and being in their office was quite unreal. Now, I am one of them. My internship is coming to an end and I will soon be a full-time member. I knew joining this organization was the right thing to do because it will help me with my major and my future career. Another change that I never saw coming was being involved with the Greek life. Dating someone from a fraternity sparked an interest of bringing a new sorority into UH. I plan on bringing Tri Delta into my school in the upcoming spring semester, hoping that it will not overwhelm me. I may or may not abandon this plan but I do hope to go through with it.

I look forward to the rest of my first semester and what it will bring. I can confidently say that I am accustomed to the college life and I am prepared for next semester.

Next Chapter

I was never one to think about the future and what it holds. I never imagined life after high school because I was afraid and I never knew what to expect. Graduating was quite unreal for me. I couldn’t believe I made it and that I’m finally starting a new chapter in my life.

This summer was the transition from high school to college and I was to prepare myself for the big change that I was soon to encounter. With the help of my mom, I was able to take care of my loans, registration, and getting my class schedule. We decided to  print out the campus map and label which buildings I need to go to for my classes and the paths I have to take. Also, we went dorm shopping and bought anything that I needed for my room and school supplies.

I’m mostly excited for school. I was nervous about making friends and finding a group to fit into. However, it’s been a week since I moved in and I’m making more and more friends everyday. I was definitely surprised how nice everyone is here. Although I solved my problem with finding friends, I’m nervous about my classes. I don’t know what to expect when it comes to college classes. I am aware that college classes are harder than high school classes so I do have to prepare myself for that and work harder. I”m here to learn and to have fun and I will make sure that I stay on track of my study while having fun and being social.

Before my first day, I would like to be confident and prepared for all my classes and everything school involved. I would like to make plans to start working on my major. I am scheduled for classes that do not relate to my major so I’ll have a semester to prepare to start working on my major.